Saturday, February 25, 2012

Insecurities

Yesterday, I thought I would get that call that I had been dreaming about for a while now. The one that would say, "Hey, you've been hired!" I didn't and so decided to go and cook the family a nice vegetarian stir-fry with as many veggies as I could find, some tofu and some nuts. I also made a soup of spinach, potatoes, carrots and kidney beens. Blended it, put some olive oil and voila! What a delish dish! Everyone loved it. Today I woke up with the blues. For the first time in my life, I have not been able to convince 3 interviewers that I am the right choice to their needs. I really don't know what is going on with me but it's very saddening. Could it be because they see the dreaded 50 coming up?  don't know and I do care. It's a nasty world out there and I never thought that I would not be able to find a job in one of the only places in the country where the economy is still thriving. I am attempting on the other hand to make a lace dress with the lace that my mother bought before she died. Not sure how it's going to turn out. We'll see!

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Sunday, February 19, 2012

google's demise

well. this new blogger is pretty awful. google is getting ridiculous with its demands and its attempts to become all. and we know how fascist dictatorships work, right? eventually then cannot support the effort it takes to control everything. Your time will come too Google. It's a question of time.

Thursday, February 02, 2012

Update

Life slowly returns to its routine of pleasant Shabbat afternnons, quietly reading, with no sounds, no reminders, no need to be "active". Connections are being made, interviews, good dinners and a welcoming and non judgemental husband and his family.  I miss, most of all, my mother and our almost daily messenger conversations and her great FB updates. I miss my father by default and intensely my good friends both in Marco and Coimbra, who did more than most of my family put together (exceptions allowed) to keep me together, to help me  get through what is still a very rough patch. To those who were and are there for me (many of you) I will never forget), to the few, maybe 2 or 3 who have belittled and publicly insulted me, it's on your conscience, to attack viciously someone whose mother has just died. May you get a better treatment, because, you do not pay rent in my brain, so I will not indulge you.
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